They say one of the best ways to get over yourself (essentially) is to focus upon that for which you are grateful. When you get a little too in your head, down in the dumps, pessimistic or having a case of the want-sies, reflecting on what you're happy with already can turn things around. At least I've found that to be the case.
These last few months, it's been all too easy to let myself get all "poor me" every now and again. Life careened in directions I could not control, and that made me feel hard done by. I'm really not, though. Each time I began noticing self-pity trying to inch its way into my subconscious, I worked on defending against it with gratitude. I sure have a lot for which to be thankful.
Four beautiful, healthy girls. It is astonishing and beats the odds, quite frankly, that I have been blessed with four girls born healthy, strong, capable and beautiful. (They really are stunners) They are the purpose of my life, my living legacy, and the best teachers I've ever had.
I have great friends. Northern family, best friends since elementary school, friends who have woven themselves into my life. I read that one is lucky to have one or two truly great friends in a lifetime--so I count myself incredibly blessed. In fact, one of my good friends from the Yukon came to our family's thanksgiving dinner with her own family as they cross the country on a job transfer. When I left the Yukon, I cried ugly tears saying goodbye to Carol-Ann, because I truly didn't know when I would ever see her again. I am so thankful I had the chance to introduce her to Summer, and make plans for our family to go east and visit her.
I am thankful to be here, in Ottawa, to celebrate these special occasions with my family again. Seeing my kids running around my mom's living room after dinner all hopped up on apple crisp and pumpkin pie made me feel so, so at peace. (The wine helped too). This is so right--we are supposed to be here among family. Thanks be.
I am thankful for the fundamentals: good food to nourish us, a family based on loving principles, a house soon to call our own, and the freedom to be whomever we want to be without persecution. These things make me grateful.
I am thankful for the clarity to have known what I want and how to get it: an education, a wonderful husband, a young family, the ability to write for pay. These things help me define myself, find my place in the world, and practice making it better.
I have a lot to reflect on, when challenged to be thankful. I am certainly blessed. Happy Thanksgiving!