Wednesday, June 19, 2013

Blue Skies

Rich has left us for a couple of weeks to settle things back in the Yukon. I knew today, my first without him, would be tough. So I made plans with my good friend and her little baby boy to go on a nice walk along the Ottawa River, hoping the return to walking in the woods would ground me and replenish my soul's water supply. I am already feeling more positive, and thoroughly enjoyed reaping the benefits of having a good, life-long friend only a message and a drive away from me.

It was so nice to feel breezes off the water, see Abby run up ahead and then dawdle behind on the trail. It felt familiar to be back in our comfort zone: maybe not "our" forest, but a lush, green forest on a sunny morning was pacifying.

I know I am really going to enjoy re-discovering my city, finding new green spaces for my little family to enjoy. These green spaces may take a bit more work to get to, but I believe a return to our church is worth it. Especially when my soul needs a little lift.

When we can't get up and go, there is always my mom's backyard, where the wind blows a symphony through the maple and birch trees, raining seeds and twigs down for my little girls to discover. Providing treats and shelter for an array of squirrels and birds, who in turn provide us with backyard nature watch TV.

"Blue skies, smiling at me. Nothing but blue skies do I see." -Irving Berlin (sung by Ella Fitzgerald)

My mom's maple tree

We'll find our way here, without Daddy. The girls are finding a comfortable rhythm in our day, and are starting to feel at home, temporary as it may be. They, unlike me, are not forward-thinking. They find themselves in the middle of a day and navigate through it, putting one foot in front of the other. I just need to slow right down and set my pace to theirs and I think we'll be okay.

I am working on staying here, in the present moment as the Zen Buddhists say, but my biology reminds me there's a baby a-coming. I am washing little clothes, gathering favourite postpartum recipes, meeting a new doctor and getting ready to sit on my nest and wait. I am stopping to connect with this little person, slurping the last sips of this last pregnancy before it is all over in a flash, curtains fall. I can't believe I'm so close to meeting him or her and I am so excited. But before I take my final bow on pregnancy, I have a sweeping musical reprise to immerse myself into (if I may extend the metaphor further!)


  1. I love being a short drive away from you! Henry loved seeing the girls again. I'm glad we found a "new" walking trail together. I'm surprised we were the only mama's there! It's beautiful. Can't wait to do it again.

  2. Sarah,

    While looking for pictures of early pregnancy, your blog and wanted to know if you might be willing to share your photo above with my week by week pregnancy gallery. In fact, I'd love to include your whole series if you are willing to share it! The link to my gallery is below. Please let me know if you are interested, and congratulations!

    Thanks so much!


    The Maternity Gallery


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