Monday, September 3, 2012

Transitions


Today was an awesomely amazing family day. I probably won't remember it forever-- there was nothing extraordinary about it, but I am finishing it this evening especially thankful for the little ladies and the big papa that filled it. The babies are trying to figure out crawling and movement, and needed a few extra cuddles and encouragement while they worked it all out. They made us all laugh as they demolished some blueberry muffins over dinnertime, and gave me these looks that seemed to say, "you are my favourite person EVER." 
Rich actually followed through on a promise to do some cleaning, and cuddled his babies up good while I made dinner. Abby and I took a great walk in the woods, and she was captivated by the autumnal changes we spotted: fireweed turning red, berries ripening, leaves yellowing.
I've consistently felt like a changed person since the babies were born, but lately I've been feeling like I'm at a fork in the road where I can choose to head towards my best self, or keep on the route of where I am today. Today's me is still an awesome person to be, but I am eager to see how much more present, patient, confident and wise I am in five years' time. I'm excited for the experiences I'll accumulate and for the resulting knowledge. I want to know what's in store, but without having to rush through my kids' childhoods, and my own twenties and thirties. 
I'm sure we all feel like this at one point or another. I'm lucky enough to have some pretty rad ladies in my life all at different stages in their lives and I am always learning so much from them. I admire them so much and feel a natural pull to emulate them. Isn't it always that way? We're in junior high school wishing we were as cool as the seniors.
So tonight, I go to bed thoroughly happy with what I've created, what bounty of beauty surrounds me, and so, so excited for what's to come. Not knowing whats in store, but really excited to keep working on being my best self.


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