Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Third Trimester

I don't mean to give the impression that everything I do and think about is pregnancy-centered these days, because of course it's not. I am thinking about my little girl turning three, I spent the better part of the weekend nursing a stomach-flu sick husband, I have been reading voraciously and cooking up a storm. I feel like I'm living a balanced life but naturally, as I close in on the finish line, my burgeoning belly and dwindling energy levels impact my rhythm. I am slow-moving, heavy-breathing, foot-stomping in my day.
I am not, however, ready to complain. Physically, this twin pregnancy is becoming difficult, and comes with challenges, but I am generally enjoying it. I love being a vessel to these two beings caught in some celestial existence between concept and being. I love that their arrival will follow over two years of waiting, wishing and praying; the dividends to my hope. I love honouring my body for undertaking this momentous task with yoga, good food, ample water supply and rest. As the demands become more present, I am happy to rest, slow down and wait out these last few weeks.
These two babies remind me of their impending arrival by rolling, sweeping and moving around, and it delights me to no end. I love grabbing onto a little limb, feeling a little bum roll from one side to the other. It is a really esoteric relationship. I can feel their presence all the time, and yet they have not inhaled their first breath. They have beating hearts, but their little souls are still in transition from some great beyond to here. I love thinking about this concept. Imagine being on your death bed and having nothing but time to ponder where you're going next; I spend long hours thinking about from where these little beings are coming. It's almost magic, and being the bearer of such magic is really quite amazing.
I have been having some early contractions here and there, and so I am hoping to keep strong and keep these babies growing in their cocoons for another month or so. I am resting with my feet up, drinking tons of water, eating frequently, breathing deeply, and thanking my lucky stars for a patient daughter and husband, who pick up the slack around home. I ampaying attention to the cues to slow down, and hoping that between now and D-Day, I can keep a balanced life.

1 comment:

  1. Thank you for taking the time to share such a special moment... your posts bring a smile to my face each time I read them (with the exception of several, at which times made me share your tears), and proves to be a great way to take a break from my work day!!

    THANK YOU!

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