Thursday, February 10, 2011

The alternate route

After our second loss, I felt (as many women do), supremely helpless. There's a frustrating threshold in the medical community that requires women suffer three miscarriages before being referred to a specialist for in-depth testing and investigation. I needed to do something, to feel as though I could own an ounce of control in an otherwise free-falling catastrophe. I told my doctor all of this, and shared my decision to see a naturopath, hoping for some kind of help, or hope. He supported my decision, and a week later I saw one here in town. She admitted immediately that fertility struggles are not her area of expertise. After a lengthy meeting and in-depth biophysical profile, she assured me I was doing the best I could to live healthy, and wished me luck. She offered me a list of teas that might help my body heal and regain strength from the miscarriage, but regretfully (and honestly) suggested she may not be able to offer me the help I sought.
I was not looking for answers after this recent loss; I just wanted to move on, and wait for my now allotted appointment to see a specialist. A crossing of paths and meeting just the right people at just the right time a couple of weeks ago led me to be referred to another naturopath in town. I was assured this doctor was very well-versed in fertility support and had helped many women overcome such struggles. I made an appointment, but I was scared.
What if she told me something so simple that I would kick myself for not trying it sooner? What if she couldn't find anything at all?
I filled out a 5-page intake form in advance and went for my appointment this week, a little hopeful, but a lot scared.
I was there an hour and a half and let me say, I left feeling so light. I left feeling like I marched with purpose. I left feeling incredibly validated that someone had echoed some of the things I'd been wondering about all along.
Now, we have a plan. I have homework (a diet diary, some food choices to alter, some grocery shopping to amend), and a slew of handouts to help me remember some of the valuable information she shared with me.
In the morning, I take a probiotic (to help my gut recover from the antibiotics and infection from my previous treatment), Vitamin B6 (a reproductive hormone regulator), an adrenal boost of botanicals, a daily multivitamin, Folic Acid (to have built up in my system for round 5), and Evening Primrose Oil (an essential fatty acid that also helps regulate hormones). It makes me feel like a hypochondriac to look at the handful of supplements next to my water in the morning, but it also something concrete for me to do to get healthy and balanced.
This naturopathic doctor did not promise me anything, but did assure me that if nothing else, our work together will leave me more healthy and with a more balanced system inside. She pointed out that my naturally fast metabolism and four pregnancies in the last two and a half years has depleted many resources inside my operating system.
I feel like I can say, "I'm on my way," and that's a kind of drive I haven't hoped for in awhile. Feeling incredibly thankful and powerful over here.

4 comments:

  1. Very touching post Sarah. I wish you well on the route you have chosen.

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  2. It took me 5 years to get pregnant with Taylor (including double doses of fertility pills which also failed) only to have everyone say "there's nothing wrong with you". I would rather hear that I had a problem so that at least there would be something to "fix". I hear your frustration and sadness.

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  3. Wonderful Sarah. A dear friend of mine is a naturapathic doctor and I'm totally sold on the holistic view of naturopathy.

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