Monday, October 12, 2009
Oprah's always been going on and on about the importance of keeping a Gratitude Journal, were everyday, you're supposed to write down five things for which you are grateful. Then there was all that hype about The Secret, and my mother-in-law bought me an Official The Secret Gratitude Book(tm), were I was supposed to write down on one page what I was thankful for and on the opposite the things I wanted, but written in past tense as if I already had them. I.e., "I am thankful for having won the lottery." This was "putting it out there" a credo my mother-in-law lives by and repeats to insane decibels.
"It won't rain, just put it out there,"
"Your gravy will turn out fine, just put it out there,"
"Winter will never last eight months in the Yukon, just put it out there."
It's funny when it's not your mother-in-law. Anyhow, I never got more than 10 pages into my Official The Secret Gratitude Book(tm). And I like writing in not-list form in my journal. Not every day even. But everyday when I go to bed, if I haven't slipped into sleep immediately, I run through all the things I'm thankful for, in my head. A prayer, I guess. I feel like if I offer up my thanks, and recognize all the things I am lucky to have, then I am not taking them for granted and maybe they won't be taken away from me.
I am thankful for my family back home, for who they have shaped me to be, their unconditional love and support, and for always showing up to all the hockey games, school plays, swimming lessons and assemblies were us kids were doing a reading.
I am thankful for my family here, for my husband I am so lucky to have met so early in life. For such a fun and kind companion to be together with for the rest of our lives: together celebrating te good times and together to work through the hard. I am thankful for a happy and healthy baby girl who continues to grow up healthy and strong. I am thankful for being shown the love of a parent and how deep and infinite that well runs.
I am thankful for Rich's family, for my friends up North and for my foundational, forever friends back home. I am thankful for how much they have taught me about myself, for the great memories we have, and for the confidence that they will always be there.
I am thankful for my health because I know that one illness or condition could drastically change the way I live my life, complicating it, making things harder. I am thankful that I don't have that kind of obstacle in my life and because I don't, I feel like I am obligated to do more with my abilities to celebrate this fact.
I am thankful today for the delicious feast last night and that there was a full table of people in my dining room to enjoy it. I love a busy, full house. We ate turkey, stuffing, mashed potatoes, glazed carrots, mandarin-strawberry-walnut salad, pumpkin bread, pumpkin pie, pumpkin loaf, red wine, coffee, ice cream and homemade cranberry sauce. It was a meal so complete and delectable that were it to be my last, I would be satisfied. Rich gave me the ultimate compliment at the end:
"I feel like I might actually barf, I ate so much."
Happy Thanksgiving! You too Oprah!
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